KAREN and her POSTure

2012-我要快乐

2012-01-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

2011对我而言，是难过的。
被伤害很多，也成长了一点。
我认为成长就是不断的伤害，
我们被人伤害，也伤害别人。
家人，亲戚，朋友，同事。
去年的我，伤痕累累。
唯一的好事就是，
还是有人在我最辛苦的时候，
给我温暖，谢谢你们。

2012，我真心期盼你对我好一点。
我要快快乐乐=]

我和青梅竹马

2011-11-08T22:25:00.009+08:00

13年不见，再相见时，
是什么感觉？
让我来告诉你吧。。。

上个星期五的员工旅行，我们来到了台北。
行程很赶，果然旅行公司就是让你走马又看花。
但还是抽出时间，与他们会面了！
13年啊~~变化真大！
要不是之前就看过照片了，一时之间还真不能消化。

小智，yoyo，我，姨姨，叔叔=]
我搭着计程车去到他们家的路上，就开始在紧张了。
同事后来告诉我，当晚我为了掩饰紧张，
说话特别快，特别大声。
但是，上句不接下句，完全语无伦次。
我人生头一遭，那么紧张，就是这一次=s
本来我以为相遇的场面会是相拥而泣，
但是我们没有，哈哈！
但是我的内心真的是在喜极而泣。。。

加入了两个我的同事！感谢相伴~
话说这张照片背后有这么一段小插曲：
姨姨：小智，去坐karen旁边。
小智：现在是在拍结婚照吗？
真是可爱~~我心想。

隔两天，也见到廸廸了，在西门町。
小时候就很好奇，为什么是哥哥，却要叫弟弟？
长大才明白，原来你就叫廸廸哦~~
呵呵，小时候完全没有印象，
长大后其实没有想象中陌生。
但是见到第一眼，我愣了两秒就对了。
那两秒我心里的旁白是：这个人是谁啊？

第一次到台湾，就是差不多这样啦~
接下来，要说第二次的=]
先到台南参加干姐姐的婚礼，
最后两才去台北。

第一天晚上，说了很多话。
分开了这么久，
再见面时发现性格上有许多相同之处，
感觉真的很妙~

第二天晚上~~
我和yoyo，我们的家人都说我们很像，
长相和性格方面，
所以我们都还没交男朋友！
哈哈哈，姨姨很介意yoyo还没有男朋友呢~
因为她26岁就生完最后一胎了。。。
她还一直叫我们不要那么凶><

last shot!
可惜有点蒙。。。

回忆果然只能用来回忆，
故事说得很精彩，因为她是故事。
但依然美丽！
我会珍惜的。

没有表情就是最好的表情？伸手不打笑脸人？屁~~

2011-08-11T22:58:00.005+08:00

我犯错时，=.=
我紧张时，=.=
我惶恐，内疚，不安。。。
我身处于任何一种情绪时，
都只有一种表情，=.=
因为我是狮子座，
就算受伤了，尾巴还是要翘起来的骄傲猫科类。

我不表现出来，不代表我不在乎。
只是因为骄傲，不想表现得很逊。
我常常被人误解，因为=.=的表情。
比如：“哇！她真的够力叻，都酱的情况了，还酱没所谓的感觉。”
只有我知道，因为太对不起，所以连对不起都说不出口。

几年后的今天，
我学会了一件事，不要面无表情。
要表现，要表现！
但似乎，还是不成功。
因为我学了，伸手不打笑脸人。
比如今天：“哇！sequence都乱了，你做么还酱轻松？”
其实我因为太不安，选择用笑容来掩饰。

爱面子真的是害死人不偿命啊!

说输

2011-07-24T01:31:00.002+08:00

输，就是不赢。
输，就是赢的一部分。
要怎样输才能赢？

当你输的时候，想想你得到了什么；
或者，什么比较重要。
比如说：
和朋友在新年时打牌，结果你输了钱。
但打牌中你和朋友交流，你得到了快乐。
快乐与钱，那样比较重要？
你得到了比较重要的快乐，
你的输，就是赢的一部分。

日剧《一公升的眼泪》，主人翁的父亲是豆腐店老板。
这间豆腐店是主人翁的爷爷传下来的。
但是那位父亲并不喜欢做豆腐，卖豆腐。
所以年轻时他离开家里到外地打拚。
什么都做过：工匠，销售员，工厂员工。。。
但每份都做不久。
过了一段时间，他发现，其实自己最爱的就是豆腐。
所以他回家去了，用心的向爷爷学习如何做豆腐。
主人翁说：如果父亲没有绕远路，
怎么会知道自己最爱的其实就是卖豆腐呢？
所以说，当别人看见父亲输了自己的前途时，
他其实正在赢回自己的理念与人生。
有多少人正在过自己真正想要的生活呢？
更甚者，有多少人知道自己真正想要什么呢？

日本卡通《一休和尚》里有一名武士，新右卫门。
有一天，新右卫门和一休来到菜市场，遇上了几个坏人。
他们正向摊主索取保护费，他因此上前阻止。
其中一个坏人要求新右卫门从他胯下爬过去，
不然就得打赢他，他们才不收保护费。
身为一名武士，新右卫门竟然选择从坏人胯下爬过去。
这个举动让一休非常失望的道：
你又不是打不赢他，为何表现得像个窝囊废？
新右卫门无奈：
你看看街上两边吧，若我们打起来，我赢了又如何？
打斗中或许会伤了妇女小孩，毁坏摊子。
到时候摊主的损失不是更多？
一休恍然大悟，当时才5岁的我也恍然大悟。
我们以为武士输了自尊，其实他赢了所有人的和平。
有多少人有勇气输了自己，赢了别人？

而我，放弃了进大公司的机会，
却得到了很多。
人生啊！总是计划赶不上变化。
不管最初设定了什么，还是随遇而安吧！
若想赢得框框内的，说不定你输了框框外的。

培养勇气好好输一场吧！
老天爷不会亏待好人的=]

大眼妹的快乐

2011-07-13T23:28:00.011+08:00

我从小眼睛就很漂亮，（瓦靠，第一句就这么恶）
是一位大眼妹。（其实也还好）
曾经有aunty，因为我眼睛很美，误认我为马来人。（应该是aunty硬掰的）
直到现在，还是有很多人在帮我化妆时，
称赞我的眼睛：“哇，你的眼线超好画的，好羡慕你的眼睛。”
但。。。以上的情况，通通只发生在！！！！我戴隐形眼镜时~~~

我从三年级就开始戴眼镜了，戴着戴着，眼睛越变越小。
所以！帮我爱美的我的王母娘娘，在我五年级时就让我配戴隐形眼镜。
因此，我从四眼妹，又变回大眼妹了，嘻嘻=D
但这种情况只维持到我17岁。
后来去新加坡读书，不想长时间戴着隐形眼镜，所以就不常带了。
现在几乎是没在戴~~~

但是呢！！！今天我发现！
戴隐形眼镜，会让视野更辽阔，心情更好！
今天上班时，心情是好到一个爆！
怎么说呢？
感觉没有了设线的框框，我可以任思绪飞翔。
就这么一颗绿豆两粒芝麻的事，就让我兴奋不已。
感觉自己犯了眼花，看到的是幸福在身边围绕。
我已经很久很久，都没有这么快乐了。
简单有力的快乐不具任何原因，只因为我活着。
感受到生命所以快乐，是谁给了我莫大的力量？
我谢谢他。

上司今天说了一句话：
“Karen，你是偏向动还是静？我们觉得你像动比较多。”
其实我是宜动宜静，只是太久没动，也太久没静，
就变成一滩死水般，什么也提不起劲儿去做。
我是多么适合快乐的一个人，也因为太久没快乐了，
就变得很难快乐。
更确切地说，我不想去快乐。

放下了，我知道今天我真的放下了。
想不想得通是另外一回事。
或许还是会感到害怕，再加上一点恨意。
但是，我真的快乐了。
所以，听到这首歌，
我想你了，带着一点点忧伤的幸福感=]

有时候有时候
我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候
没有什么会永垂不朽
可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流

sometimes, it's really hurt when i miss you.
i love you

Jo Kwon - The Day Of Confessing My Love (Moving In Song)

2011-06-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

Had been down recently.
AGAIN!? I know.
I can only be cured by music.
This song, for you and me.
SMILE=]

放不下

2011-06-04T21:08:00.005+08:00

总是在想通之后放下，
却又在忘记之后提起。
轮回般的我的痛苦。

星期四晚上，
做了一个梦。
我在梦里大喊着：“我不姓张！”
梦醒后，我浑浑噩噩的去上班。
同事都说我没精神。
我想大概是因为在梦里，我用尽力气歇斯底里。

就在我专心的做着化验时，
有个想法射箭般突然闪进我思绪里。
这两个星期的乌云随之飘散。
我所有的不愉快，都是因为你的不在。
对不起，我又回到原点了。
但是这一次，像是松了口气般的轻松。
我没有怪你，只是遗憾。
因为。。。
你在的话，我会有力量去面对。
这样想的我，似乎也得到你给的力量=]

不过事实是你不在。
所以有些事情，我还是无法放下。
因为我还不够大，不够力量去对抗那些所谓的血缘关系。
也不够力量去看清真相。
我知道有些事情，等着我静静等待水落石出。

我现在，暂时解脱了。
不久的将来，
又要开始轮回了，闲=.=

你。。。能不能保佑我呢？
你在天上，鸟瞰人间比较方便吧？嘻嘻^^
把一双手带给我好吗？
那个男人，要像你一样疼爱我，给我力量，听我半夜讲话不睡觉。
最重要的是，他的手能把我拉起来，从痛苦中。

感动

2011-05-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

什么叫感动？
懂得珍惜就是一种感动。
我这一个月过得很好：
公司新同事对我很好，我很珍惜。
回乡旧朋友不期而遇，我也珍惜。
知心朋友，我最珍惜。
看到你写给我的字条，我的眼眶红了。
我爱你哦~~

PS:谢谢你把我放在心上♥

张家人

2011-04-03T19:12:00.005+08:00

我是张家人。
我是张家人？

无可否认，我姓张。
但那又如何？
在我们还没有放弃之前，我们就被放逐于这个姓氏之外。
所谓血浓于水，我只不过是从我爸身上接了这姓氏，
放置在我的名字之前。
你们并不把我的张和你们的张并列与同等对待。
我只想问一句，为什么？
为什么我和我的家人，没有做过什么坏事，
却要受到这种针对？
到底为什么？你嫉妒我们什么？
我们很穷的，你到底想从我们身边夺走什么？

无可否认，我有很多知心朋友。
但那又如何？
我受到伤害，你们不闻不问也不挺身而出。
她对我加害，你们心胸宽大的接纳她。
我只是俗人一名，做不到清者自清。
所谓朋友之间的信任，正在一点一滴被磨灭。
我只想问一句，为什么？
我不够用心交朋友吗？
我不值得你们义气相挺吗？
我很穷的，最珍贵的东西就是家人给我的亲情和你们给我的友谊。
若失去了，我就无恐惧了。

只对你有感觉—辰亦儒♥

2011-03-27T00:56:00.002+08:00

其实，最近还蛮多想法的。

某天
我：我比较喜欢2AM，2PM没什么实力。
疯韩流的二妹：什么没有实力！？他们是野兽叻！
我心想：是野兽=有实力？
过几天
日本地震，海啸，核危机。
其实近几年，地球上的许多国家陆续发生天灾。
大大的天灾，多多的死难者，以及为他们伤心难过的人。
这个世界怎么了？
那边厢，他们努力勇敢的活下去。
这边厢，你们努力伤害我的家人，还有我。
人类怎么了？
整天在Facebook哥哥长哥哥短的，
日本事件，也不见得你们表达一句关心的字句。
90后怎么了？
（我没有拿竹竿打翻船，只是敲某些年轻人的头罢了）

不知不觉，一句我用到烂，用到很反感的字眼。
却也是最接近生活的形容词。
不知不觉，4年了。
偶尔，在床上打开眼睛的那一刻，
我问自己：为什么我会在这里？我在这里干什么？
好像患失忆症一样，对当下感到陌生。

今天，随手翻看二妹买回来的e-pop，
看到当年很爱很爱的偶像，辰亦儒！！
说他35岁前想结婚，可以是我吗？
（心花怒放中）
有人说初恋难忘，辰亦儒虽然不是初恋，
虽然也从来没有过初恋。
可是，看到他我还是会心动！！！
你可能会嫌这首歌没营养，歌词没深度。
但你不能否认那份甜蜜的感觉♥♥♥

Dreams 3 and Edited Genesis

2011-03-18T23:23:00.004+08:00

Just came back from Dreams 3 concert,
the edited Genesis is AWESOME!!
Juniors (my juniors) really improve a lot.
The drum sound produced is synchronous,
and the action is sharpe.

After the concert, all the "old one" stayed back for announcement of next AY main comm.
Congratulation to Kaleryn!!!
I hope your fellow members and friends can support you.
I believe they will understand that you have the ability to bring Salvo to a better stage.
All the best ya!
Also to Weilun, Sijia, and Shaobeng, congrats!

And i am a little blues during the debrief,
Waisun Senior said, it makes me miss poly life.
And so do i!!!
Really miss those times.....
真的，这样的想念，说几次都不够。
尤其听到debrief内容都是一些我不曾参与的故事~~
我只能说，过去的美好时光，真让人怀念。。。

Well, tomorrow have to go back Malaysia,
i feel so bad that i cannot go IMM to support Salvo.
You all must go to the final round okay!
I will pray for you!
See Salvo on 8th of April=]
Goodnight to me...zzzZZZZ

精神喊话

2011-03-06T16:18:00.004+08:00

灵魂对话，总是让人打从心底感到满足与踏实。
昨天到今天，久违了的你，和我一起不停的说话。

每一次对话，每一次新的认识。
这一次，我会说：“我要相信自己！”
我会对自己请神喊话=]

就像。。。
12岁从曼谷旅行回来，
我每天都说：“我要减肥！”
说说而已，就真的瘦下来了。

今年华人新年前，
我每天都说：“我要变美！”
新年期间，大家都说我越来越美了。（爽到~~）

最神的是，新年赌21点时，
连续六场“ban lat”,
就因为我说：“我要"banlat"!”
也不知道当时为什么会有那样的自信。

精神喊话，不是自欺欺人，是改变磁场。
所以你呢？你要什么？

小小

2011-02-20T23:18:00.005+08:00

亲爱的弟弟，张小小：

你到底发生什么事了？为什么走得这么突然？
我们每次不管走到哪里，你都会跟上来，
生怕我们被拐走似的。
那你现在为什么自己跑掉？

每次我很久没有回家，一回到家，你还会跳到我身上，
然后，前爪搭着我的腿，往下滑。
在我的腿划上两条抓痕。。。

平时我们都喜欢笑你脏小小。
还记得吗？
你去玩牛大便我帮你冲凉，一连两次！
第二次我发脾气了，你就乖乖坐着不敢动。

一靠近你，你就翻身，给你的肚子我，要sayang。
那个样子真的很可爱>.<
以前想到家里，不知道妹妹有没有乖，有没有惹妈妈生气，
还不会很担心，因为我知道你会让妈妈开心。
现在你不在了，怎么办？
你走之前有没有传授小雄两招啊？
教他怎样让妈妈开心啊？
你为什么没有等我啊？
虽然你没有看过爸爸，不过记得要去找他啊！
以后要过得开心，健康，知道吗？
以后要投胎做我的孩子啊！

姐姐上

当时你还很小（27/6/2009）

后来你长大了（31/7/2010）

哇靠，你来我们家不到3年也！
你就俘虏多少人的心哦~
我永远爱你<3

2011-02-03T01:43:00.004+08:00

其实我知道问题出在哪里了，
到头来，是我把自己搞到这幅田地。
被上司责骂也好，被同事闲言闲语也好，
如果我不是这么糊涂，这一切不会属于我。

我不应该在学习时，没有把他们的每字每句，
刻在心里。
但是我能为我自己辩驳一下吗？
你们也没有完整的教我啊。。
有一些小细节应该注意的，你们也没说啊。。
学了之后，完全没有好好的练习到，
等我正式自己做实验的时候，都多久了？
我又不是机器人，把程式编写好就永远不会忘。

我最最不应该的，就是像我的一个同事说的，
没有用心机做事，不明白的东西，问了就应该记住。
但是我没有，当下问了，问题解决了，就过了。
为什么都已经22岁了，却像12岁一样？

或许我常常认为自己思想成熟是错的，
在生活上，我是糊涂到一个不行。
被家人保护得太好，被朋友照顾得太好，
没有他们，我什么也不是。

我是很害怕，因为我知道做错事了。
我是很委屈，因为听到同时把我的事拿来噘舌根，
虽然说得很小声，但还是听得到，因为我坐在隔壁桌吃饭。
超夸张，真的来到社会后，才发现以前家人朋友们，对我有多好。

这几天，脑袋一直围绕妈妈常说的话：
你这么糊涂，要怎样成大事？
是啊，我不想做大事了，不想扛起这个家了，
我想要逃跑，我想要飞。
我想要做我想做的工作，在那之前，先要去读书，考一张大学文凭。

。。。
有一个师父说，爸爸过得很辛苦，有一口怨气吐不出。
或许是因为他走得太早，而当时我们姐妹都还小；
或许是因为我们每次在忌日时，都向他诉苦：
没有良心的亲戚怎么欺负我们，等等的事。
所以他不放心我们。

所以，我要怎样去自私？
怎样放弃而不顾这个家？
今年是兔年了，妈妈48岁了。
而我22岁了，小时候的要快快长大的愿望实现了。
不过，长大是长大了，烦恼也多了，
压力并没有因为开始做工赚钱而减少。
为什么？我想了又想，结果回到原点。
都是我自己太糊涂而造成的。

我能不能辞职，在另一个地方重新开始？
能不能保佑我，换了工作，薪水也可以像现在一样可观。
（虽然是用自由与青春换来的就对了）
我该怎么办？如果不能换工作，
至少保佑我，新年开工后，就会像法王说的，工作会比较好。
不要再有任何错误了，不要再有任何因为之前的糊涂而留下后遗症了。

新年快乐吧。。。
把虎年的霉运带走吧！
兔年我要顺顺利利的！！！

2011-02-01T10:18:00.002+08:00

原来做工就是这样的,
没有所谓的同事,
不是朋友就是敌人。
我还以为是贵人的同学，竟然会对我使记！

每天上班都提心吊胆，
怕又做错事，怕又被骂。
迷糊的人就不能有出头天吗？
我是没什么心机，现在重新来过，来得及吗？

昨天在工作岗位上，
眼眶红了又红，
这才发现自己有多脆弱。
经不起委屈，经不起责骂。

好想离开，但又不想表现得像缩头乌龟。
留下来的另一重点是钱。
钱，钱，钱。。。

2011年，璀璨的烟花，狼狈的开始！

2011-01-01T02:35:00.008+08:00

原以为2010年的最后一天，
会在实验室里忙碌的渡过。
但出乎预料的，10点半一到，
嘿嘿，打卡下班去咯~~
2010年，完美结束=]

就因为如此，我应salvo的邀约，
去到Marina Square倒数庆祝2011的到来。
为了舒缓交通，我必须绕路走到目的地，费了不少时间。
到了看烟花的广场，我才知道，
小学学的人山人海，为什么叫人山人海了，哈哈！
人多到我不可能找到salvo，也因为网络繁忙，无法联络他们。
就这样，我很狼狈的，
一路sorry, excuse me 的挤到阶梯后的位置。
非常好的位置，因为前面没人挡住视线。
这点对我这个160cm不到的矮子来说，非常重要！
本来想趁着这点找人的，但吉时到了，烟花开始了。

真的很美，如雨般下的烟花，我最喜欢了。
还有一个很特别的，配着华乐，柳树型的烟花。
这一次，我不再急着找人了。
先享受当下的美景才是正事=]
美丽的烟花，虽然一个人看，
却也不觉得落寞，
她美到让我忘了我是只身一人；
美到让我鼓掌；
美到让我想和身边的陌生人说，烟花真的很美！！！
美到让我尖叫！

看的同时，我忆起有一次，
琪琪和朋友来新看五月天演唱会，
隔天他们到Bugis逛街。
她和周仔到别处走走，特意让我和这位男生独处。
当时的我不了解她的用意，一心只想找到走散了的她和周仔。
结果我和这位男生把Bugis Junction上下走了5遍。。。
意义何在？呵呵呵。。。
现在学会了，该如何随即应变，享受当下~~~

我的2011年，在璀璨烟花下，狼狈的开始了。。。

貳零壹壹年

2010-12-31T12:06:00.002+08:00

貳零壹零年
我许下了要一个男朋友的愿望

貳零壹壹年
我只想要身体健康

脚踝铐着名为“包袱”的枷锁
跳不高去抓牢理想

傻人有傻福
我是挺傻的

天公啊
你会疼我的对吗？

Christmas 2010

2010-12-27T11:27:00.011+08:00

This year of Christmas,
Santa Claus gives me some weight as my present=/

18th of December, a beautiful saturday,
no rain, good!
Went to this bar and had super nice food, yummy yummy~~

The following week,
21st of December, a not so beautiful tuesday,
cause i am working=/
dinner with Rachel and Sokhoon at The Orange Lantern,

bought chocalate for them and got chocalate from them, haha!

2 days later,
23rd of December,
met Aida for dinner at Beach Road,
had muslim-indian food, not bad=]

The latest food hunting is last saturday,
went Malacca with Qian.
Ate Hainan Chicken rice, 2 bowl of durian chendol,
and tried many other stuff.

See, how can i not get fat?

离开

2010-11-22T21:52:00.003+08:00

离开，有一阵子了。
视野，变得宽阔；
心思，也变得中庸。
谢谢你=]

不说话，因为不想听起来傻傻的，不是害怕面对。
真的谢谢你。。。
都知道我在想什么，
愿意听我在想什么，
肯告诉我你在想什么。

那天说想念，是真的。
除了你、排排坐的圈子，还有那交换的眼神。
我和你，心有灵犀。
可惜的是：
离开，却回不去了。

但若不离开，永远学不会。
离开是好事，它教会我珍惜。

尴尬

2010-11-07T16:07:00.010+08:00

想要去绿洲，怎么来到沙漠？
炽热的阳光，干枯的空气，
逼得我想离开，却没有力气拔腿。
多么无奈？

久而久之，变成一堆白骨，
在黄沙里，可有可无。
骆驼队经过，也不被发现的存在。
多么尴尬？

思考了很久，
或许绿洲和沙漠；
无奈和尴尬，
皆是一场梦。

也或许，这是一场螳螂捕蝉，黄雀在后的游戏。
而这场游戏对我来说，不公平。
因为或许我连心痛的权利都没有。

没有对谁说，也不想说，学会沉默好些日子了。
所以对于已看出端倪的人啊！
我可以告诉你，我不是始作俑者。
但或许我有点活该，咎由自取。

两个人拥抱暧昧，
三个人拥抱尴尬。

2010-10-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

After graduating from TP, or rather Salvo Drums,
we hardly have chance to perform.
But hardly doessn't mean never,
and this really happen on friday night.
The chance drop from sky!!!!
I feel so happy and guilty at the same time.
But luckily Cheryl understand how i feel,
yeah, i feel happy like mad! LOL!

我的幸福

2010-10-24T11:46:00.003+08:00

星期四MC，回Salvo，充当一天助教，好幸福。
星期五晚上和姐妹聊天至半夜，好幸福。
星期六重温搬鼓彩排收鼓的日子，好幸福。
然后一起吃饭，二人世界去唱K，再一起晚餐聊天玩牌，好幸福。
星期天，睡到太阳晒屁股，好幸福。
然后煮早餐煮到锅子烧焦。。。
煮多一次，现在吃饱了，好幸福=]

有人告诉我，她的梦想很渺小，
只想在家里当贤妻良母，当宅女。
我何尝不是，出社会后，
得了“想家病”。
每天只想回家打扫打扫，缝缝补补，外加下厨。
这样的生活，好幸福。

啊！回到现实吧，要去处理那烧焦的黑锅了=/

我

2010-10-16T01:58:00.002+08:00

我是一个重感情的人，
我没有办法遇到不开心的事，
还要自己默默承受，没有办法。

垃圾桶不在，掷纸箩还是有一些。
只是现在流行环保，
不同的垃圾，要丢不同的桶。

所以女人，就是长舌，
同样的故事，说了又说，
为的只是那份感觉，
对的感觉。

我是一个超懒惰的人，
我想念我的朋友，
但从不主动联络。
我想问R台湾之旅怎样了。
我想跟她分享我的泰国之旅。
我也想问琪琪，
你怎么了？生活不开心吗？
但我连comment都懒得给。。。

我是一个矛盾的人，
明明说过可以接受不同人，不同思想。
但是我很讨厌，对于他，
我们两个有着不同的态度，我很讨厌。
更讨厌我自己，为什么不能做到完全理智！？

有时候，真的很想放弃，
风筝飞得太高了，很难掌控。

变色龙

2010-10-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

它变来变去，是为了生存。
我变来变去，是为了掩饰。
变到最后才发现，我就是我，
无需刻意伪装。
歌词中早已告诉我：
没有必要使坏，倒也不必装乖。
但是可悲的不安与自卑感让我没学会。
可怜之人必有可悲之处，原来我也是可怜人之一。

说说曼谷的自由行吧~~
四个人的组合是刚刚好的，
搭德士很方便。
在下雨天的大马路上追巴士，
我只能说，曼谷真的很随性。
意想不到的经验我们都经历了，值得。

Suan Lum Night Bazaar的店主们都很凶，
问了价不买是会被骂的。
东西没有很多，但是若别的地方有卖一样的东西，
在这里却可以以最低价购得。
Chatuchak Weekend Market真的很大，也很热。
本小姐在Chatuchak买了一个钱包，THB1000，
一样的在Suan Lum一开价就THB950，
明显的被砍了。。。

自由行是很好的，
你会更认识自己，认识别人。
也会学到很多。。。
人类和骨头一样吗？
越老越脆弱。
小时候受到委屈，倔强得一滴眼泪都不流；
现在的我，却只想好好的大哭一场。
今天应该请一天假的，我需要释放。

哇爱等储困=p

2010-09-26T13:44:00.003+08:00

去年的秋天，每当手表的时针跳到十点的时候，
我就会跟身边的人说：很迟了，我要回家睡觉。
当时的我，在离我家很远的公司实习。
“我要回家睡觉”，当时成了我的口头禅。

现在，手表的时针跳到十点，
我也跟身边的人说：很迟了，我要回家睡觉。
因为我现在，在离我家很远的公司上班。
"我要回家睡觉“，现在成了我的人生座右铭！？

社会篇：第一个月

2010-09-04T09:58:00.006+08:00

做工的时间飞奔，每天天微亮就出门，回到家不久，天又暗了。
不知不觉，领了第一份薪水。
感觉满足也踏实，终于抬头挺胸的花钱了。
但每次在柜台付帐的时候，还是觉得怪怪的，飘飘然的感觉，哈哈。

独立之后，要处理的事情也多了。
看得见或看不见的。
买保险啊，要选哪间公司？
签一张信用卡吧，总是用小舅的，之后要还钱给他，好麻烦~~

以上是刚入社会一个月的心得=]
除此之外，同事也算好相处。
虽然内部的流言云云，但不知是我看不透，还是我不在乎。
一切都是那么的“还可以”，嘿嘿。。。
还好一入行就得相熟之人提点，让我双手不沾是非。
感恩至极！

2010-08-08T15:36:00.011+08:00

Work has been manageable for me so far,
but somehow...i am afraid of the new environment and people.
I hope every things will go smooth, please!!

I went to Clarke Quay to collect my work permit yesterday morning.
And someone asked me, why you never smile,
when i showed her my Jurong Island pass.
Then i said, i thought cannot smile?
So i decided to take a picture of all my cards/pass which have my face on it.

All serious face=p
And the passport one is like Bread Face=[
I got this guy friend who always call me Moon Face or Mooncake Face=.=
Because they are all round!

After that, i went back to studio,
it had been so long since i drummed until i perspire and got blister.
I feel good, Nana Nana Nana NA~~

I moved this 5 drums, karen "hou sai lei", hehehe=D

But i went back alone=[
Because i last minute decided to go back when i am on the way back home from Clarke Quay and i didn't tell anyone that i am going back.

You know what, i hurt my ear when i move 霜降 using my left shoulder!
The drum press on my ear ring,
and my ear ring press on my ear, then bleed=.=
So....next time be careful when you move drum if you wear any accessories!

And now i am at Malaysia, home sweet home~~
I reach Changi at 10am, my "boat queue" is number 8,
i waited for 2 hours then i board the boat lo!!!
Reached home at 1pm you know=.=
And when i reach home, i saw this,

T.T~~All the nice balloons i used on my party become like that=[

♥Officially♥

2010-08-03T10:27:00.007+08:00

I am officially 21 years old today.
I am officially my godmother's daughter today.
I am officially the support of my family after today.

This morning my mum cook a bowl of noodles for me, the noodles represent long life in chinese. Then we went to a temple at JooChiat to tell the Goddess of Mercy that i am becoming her daughter today. It's so called a "ritual". Of course the "mum" here is my aunt at Bedok, the one i stay with. As for my real mum, i think i will call her 王母娘娘=p. After that, we went to ToaPaYoh to have din sum=]

Tomorrow, i will have to wake up at 6am, and prepare to go to Jurong Island. I didn't make any wish when i blew out the candles. Because my dream has came true, that is to take care of my family=]. Start working straight after my 21st birthday make me feel that, i am officially an adult, i am old enough to take up the responsibilities.

But i do have something i wanna achieve, that's to become a vegetarian. I know there are many types of vegetarian, and i dun think i will become the strictest one, because i dun do it because of religion. I do it because of myself and the Earth. I think nowadays, human just consume too much of meat and rubbish, like snacks. Luckily i am not a meat lover and i am still thinking which type of vegetarian i wanna be. Hehe=p

For the celebration on last saturday, I wanna thanks many many peoples!

Rachel and SokHoon, thank you so much for coming and i feel very sorry that i didn't have enough time to talk to you, to take care of you. I hope you did enjoy yourselves at my hometown.

Then for Salvo, i also wanna thank you all for coming. When Chiawei give me the present, i was shocked and dun dare to accept, hahaha.....Because i think you all 破费了！So ChiaWei! It's not because i bias ok!
Special thanks to Cheryl for the book also. I thought it will be an english book because you seldom read chinese book right? And i always love "words", So i like the first page the most! haha=]
Million thanks to Choo and Ruth for the CD! Seriously, i never received this kind of surprise before. And every time when i am asked to write something on a small note book for this or that friend, i will start to think when am i going to have it too. And you make my wish comes true=]
Salvo really gives me a lot of surprises, from the day i joined salvo, thank you♥

最后，如果你问我有什么遗憾的话，
那就是没有把我重要的天使，介绍给我的好朋友认识=[
但是做人还是要感恩的，不然老天爷就会把你的好运收走。
我很感恩，有这么疼爱我的家人，照顾我的朋友，个人认为还算圆满的人生=]

日记

2010-07-17T13:24:00.003+08:00

当我老了，我会在
闲来无事时，坐在后院的躺椅上，
喝杯咖啡，吃块曲奇饼，
在午后温暖阳光的沐浴下，
摊开自己的日记，
细细回味“当年”。。。
心想着：哇，原来当年还发生了这样，那样的事情！
光是想象这情景，就让我忍不住感到满足。
而这也是我持续不断写日记的动力。

可是，当情绪太过低落，日子太过无聊时，
我必须很现实的说，什么躺椅啦，什么阳光的沐浴啦，
两个字，狗屁！
但是呢，人生又不能太现实。
那样的人生，很粗糙。
现实中，还是要有一点浪漫的~~
这样，日子才比较容易过。
所以，还是努力点，继续写吧！
难保以后我当了富太太，真的有那种闲情回味“当年”=]

时间真的是过得很快，
再两个星期，就是我的生日会了！！
真得好快。。。很期待呢=]
希望会是一个愉快的回忆。

还有一件很开心的事，上次去了新加坡两个星期。
第二个星期，真的是好事不断=]
星期一接到Intertek的电话，说拜三去面试。
星期三去了Jurong Island面试，情况还不错。
星期五他们又打来说：我被录取了！
爽到（到是第一声，谢谢）~~~
但是问题又来了=[
人类就是这样，问题不断！
工作准证的手续，好像还蛮快的。
来临的星期一，又要出坡了，要去做身体检查。
如果后个礼拜就开始上班的话，
我这位寿星婆怎么办？
客人都请回家了，我呢？
工作吗？

Rainbow

2010-06-23T16:11:00.005+08:00

Hi all, it has been so long since i last updated, more than a month.
So...i'm here to update my blog with some pictures.
Yesterday i went to JB with my mum and i took some pictures.

Yeah, this is so WTF!?
It's at Johor Bahru, nearby JUSCO at Terbau City.
I have to crop away the number if not i may get sued=p

This is when i'm on the way back to Pengerang.
The sky is darker on one side and brighter on the other side of the rainbow.
Damn cool right!
It reflects our life in many ways.
Too lazy to talk about 大道理 now.

But i wanna talk about my life for the past a month.
IT JUST SUCKS!!!
Everyday surf net, watch Korean variety show "We got married".
It's damn sweet la.
Make we wanna get a husband too....
Also i get to know many Korea girl/boy group and their songs as well.
But i prefer JYP=p
His song melts my heart, seriously!

Graduation 2010

2010-05-19T23:17:00.009+08:00

Hi all!!! I graduate from TP ASc ChE today at 3pm. (Around there...)
I was very excited although i think graduation ceremony is not fun.
Haha, because i was very tired and perspiring like hell.
Kept taking picture until my face almost expressionless!
And i cannot take care of my mum and aunt if i wanna take picture with my course mate.
So they leave when i went back LT37 to take my bag without a proper goodbye, damn sad.
Luckily Hong and Pin came and accompany me until i went for Salvo.
I love them deep deep!!
And then my appearance was not good.
I should have do my hair and put some make up, tsk tsk tsk~~
But well, it is over and i shall say:
CONGRATULATION TO KAREN!!

可愛小朋友飲果汁

2010-05-14T16:51:00.002+08:00

I am addicted to this video recently, it's a must watch!
Damn cute!

I ♥♥♥ her!!!

我快疯了

2010-05-11T22:14:00.012+08:00

你真的很嚣张，明明我是年长的那一个，要对你说教或是询问事情的来龙去脉时，我还要筛选用词，怎样才不会惹你不高兴。可是我只要一开口，你就会语气不好的回应我。因为你太敏感了，我都还没下定论，你就觉得我是“这样想，那样想”的。你的口头禅，“什么哦！？”（加上一副我欠你一百万的嘴脸）。你凭什么决定我在想什么？

你的朋友很多，你很珍惜他们，这我没意见。那是你经营出来的友谊，你当然会珍惜。可是，在你是别人的好朋友之前，你有没有想过，你是这个家的女儿？是不是因为家人是一出生就有的，不用经营也不会失去的，所以你才表现得如此不在乎？你一回到家，除了facebook，就是看戏，从来没看你主动帮忙做家务。多用点心在家人身上，会要了你的命吗？

若说你不懂得珍惜家人，至少请你尊重我们可以吗？没有人是为了谁而活的，我们也一样。请不要把帮助你当成一种理所当然，一句简单的“谢谢，对不起，没关系”，在一个家庭里，也是很重要的。一个简单的提前通知，是尊重的一种，也是基本礼貌的一种。你。。。有尊重过我们吗？

你的脑袋里到底装了什么？食谱，潮流，朋友？你不是有健忘症，就是不受教。我教过你的，统统不见了。好像过了一段时间，你的头脑就会自动删除我所说过的话。然后相同的错误，你一犯再犯。到底要到何时，我才可以不用再担心？

你爱说什么就说什么，从来不管别人是否想听。你知道那些话都很伤人吗？你知道那些伤人的话都是很无谓，没有意义的吗？我们每个人都有自己的长处与短处，请不要因为你某些领域比别人强，就以此当武器用言语去伤害别人。我们从来没有主动去挖你的弱点来嘲笑，或者说一些难听、自大的话。我们谁都是人生父母养，都需要面子和被尊重，而你自私地从来不施舍这些给别人。可当你自己失去了面子，不被尊重时，你最后的话语就是“你讲这样就这样咯!”。我没有你的伶牙俐齿，我说不过你，但那不代表你是对的。为了一句话而大动干戈的始作俑者，通常都是你，而你只会责怪别人小气。

你常常说我们不了解你，而我因为害怕你会因此变成边缘少年，尝试做个和事老，帮你说话。结果我得到的是什么？她的崩溃哭泣，而你呢？经过了这么多事，你有从中学到什么吗？你有任何的改变吗？很明显的，没有。还记得那天他说的话吗？你被说中了，你只是收敛了几天，然后又故态复萌。你依然固我，这么的任性，想的。。。都是自己的利益，照顾的。。。都是自己的感受。

有一只鳄鱼跑进村子里攻击人类，吃了几个小孩。村长很生气，说要去猎捕鳄鱼。村长的女儿却说：“可能鳄鱼只是肚子饿而已啊！你怎能这么残忍？”。我想说的是，因为鳄鱼的饥饿，那些小孩就活该被吃掉吗？你就像村长的女儿一样，天真的以为加害者是无辜的。你总是帮着那些伤害我们的人说话，你有没有想过我们这些受害者的心情？已经很难过生气了，还要忍受你的天真单蠢！“反对党同学”，还记得这称号吗？是一个年长我们许多岁的表哥，在许多年前给你取的。从小，你就很爱唱反调。记得你好像说过，你会这样是因为觉得那些被我们批评的人很可怜。若不是，那就算了，我也不懂你为何那么爱唱反调？我不能阻止你想说什么，只是。。。我们的委屈，你感觉不到吗？安慰的话你不会说吗？你就只能说些令人生气的话吗？

曾经你说，如果她买那些东西给你，可是之后还要对你碎碎念，那你宁愿不要。今年的母亲节，你说要买条项链给妈妈（虽然用的是妈妈的钱，很没有意义），可是如果你还是跟平常一样，惹她生气，不懂得体谅她。那我想，她宁愿不要那条项链。最好的母亲节礼物，是能让妈妈开心，你成功过吗？

我所说的，你可以统统不认同。我也觉得写在这里，一个没有隐私可言的地方，很幼稚。但是请看到的人想一想，我到底是用怎样的一个心情，让这些事情公诸于世？

angel, 我快疯了，为了一切的一切，我的枕头都湿了。在许多个夜晚，累了，想睡了，情绪却激动的抓着我。你知道吗？前晚我梦见我妈躺在棺材里，我拼命的哭，拼命的喊。直到我被吓醒，梦魇才结束。你说，“我中学的时候是很快乐的”。很简单的一句话，却只达我心底深处。到底为了什么我要这么不快乐？我并没有选择不快乐，只是不快乐不肯放过我。我想我快吃药了吧？

TP 20th Anniversary

2010-05-07T19:33:00.005+08:00

这是我的小小心声：
今天表演了《难以共谋》和《突破》，
其实我觉得好烂，好难过。
我们的默契、实力，统统不见了。
我感觉不到那份谱，我觉得我只是把鼓声敲击出来而已。

当你说，这是我最后一次和你们一起表演了。
我在想，这是我们一起出的最后两场表演了。
一起经过了那么多艰难训练的我们；
一起出表演了两年的我们；
一起经过了许多事，但还是坚持留下来的我们。

好不甘心哦！我们的默契和实力，其实不只如此。
为什么？是谁残忍地把它们夺走？
随着时间的累积，我们应该更好不是吗？
有人说，他们要求进步，是为了自己，而不是为了表演才进步。
而我说，表演，只是一个证明我们的努力，默契和实力的机会。
我们可以更好的，可是我们已经没有机会证明了。
真的，我很不甘心。

Tomyam soup

2010-05-05T23:58:00.007+08:00

Let me ask you a question.
When you drink tomyam soup, you prefer it to be more spicy or more sour?
Dun tell me "just nice lo", i will smack you until you dunno today what day!
How nice is your "just nice"?
Everyone have their own standard for "just nice".
It's you who complained the tomyam soup is too spicy,
and now we are blamed to put too much lime juice.
For me the tomyam soup is just nice but for you is too sour.
But i still think the tomyam soup is just nice because only you think it's sour.

When a dish is served and customer complain that it is not nice.
Who do you blame?
The chef or the ingredient itself?
Yeah, sometimes is the chef's problem, his skill not good enough.
But sometimes it's because the ingredient is not fresh!
From my point of view, it's both.

Besides, they are just a bunch of _ _ _ _ _ _.

初恋红豆冰

2010-05-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

今年的母亲节，我知道要买什么给我妈了=]
就是这部电影，《初恋红豆冰》。
很写实，很有马来西亚的独特文化。
很多平时我们都在用的口语化语言，
联邦腔听到很爽，哈哈！
可能演员们都因居于海外太久，联邦腔有点做作。
但那并不影响整体的视、听觉效果。

里头的小人，我家乡也有很多。
里头的对白，我在梦里重复了许多次。
值得庆幸的是，我比打架鱼成熟。
然后，我要更加成熟，坚强=]

ALIN-换季

2010-04-30T14:18:00.004+08:00

I have many thoughts in my mind, as always.
But i hate repeating so i shall just keep them in my mind.
Anyway, i am having the same thinking as my drummates.
Perhaps you can understand a part of me from the lyrics.

让爱换个季节　再开花结果
看时间把伤口酿成了收获
在风雪里最美镜头　是抱着你
可惜不能到最后

But there are still some words from me.

No matter what is the reason, we have already reached here.
If cannot start all over again, we shall just embrace it.
BELIEVE and RESPECT are important for a group to go on,
but TOLERANCE is what we need now.
因为我觉得你们不懂什么叫包容。

Rachel's 21st birthday party

2010-04-24T23:01:00.007+08:00

Sia la....i thought today is Sunday.

Anyway, just came back from Rachel's 21st birthday party.
After knowing her family, especialy her dad.
I think i kinda know why we become so close in just a short period of time.
Her family is like Singer auntie and uncle their family,
so friendly and knowledgeble.
I talked to her dad quite long, haha.
Her dad knows a lot of things regarding religion, vegeterian, and chinese culture.
I enjoyed while listening to him because i like this kind of things too=]
And family really is a big factor which will decide your characteristic, thinking and behaviour.
I believe that's why i like her so much as a friend=]
At the moment i step out from her house,
i start missing her already,
i wanted to chat with her but no chance=[
haha, anyway....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, RACHEL, AND YOUR GRANDMA=]

I remember last time i like to chat with my dad.
We always talk about china's history.
He is very knowledgeble in this area.
I share my opinion and feeling with him.
We are like friend more than father and daughter.

把脉

2010-04-22T20:19:00.002+08:00

今驱车新山探中医，大夫把脉而言之：
爱吃煎炸酸辣，如KFC，咖喱，laksa。
胆固醇偏高。
月事来潮肚子痛。
肚易涨风，打嗝，睡觉打鼾。
晚睡晚起，易疲惫，颈项酸，腰背痛
个性很乖，却情绪紧绷导致紧张，
做事忙藏，缺乏耐性，易发脾气，发完后又后悔。
容易掉泪，常常哭。

奴家不才，不知把脉能透露如此多讯息。
且又如此神准，特别是最后一句，
说到心坎儿里去了~~

大便脸=[

2010-04-16T21:49:00.005+08:00

这几天，心情起伏很大，忽而高潮，忽而低。
大部分时间都是低落的。
而且很想哭，毫无原因的，很想哭。
还以为昨天心情已经恢复了，怎知今天的心情跟大便有的比！

今天，我真的不是故意的。
可怜的shermagne第一个中招。
还有其他人也是，
看到我的大便脸，应该也很不好受吧！
我真的感到很抱歉=[
因为我真的太累，太饿了。
再加上我原本就情绪低落，
然后又好死不死被salvo的人搞到很赌烂。
结果就一时失控了，对不起啦！
其实到现在，情绪也还是一样低落，还是很赌烂。

我相信感性和低EQ是不同的。
我很容易被周遭所发生的事情影响情绪，
但我不会因为自身的情绪而乱发脾气。
我很难掩藏自己的情绪，我的喜怒哀乐都表现在脸上，
但那并不代表我爱摆脸色，也从来没有要别人照着我的脸色做事。
只是，我的EQ没有很高就是了。
不然也不会失控！！！

平时很刮躁的我，不开心时就是不想说话。
这个时候，MP3真的很好用=]
我真的不是在耍孤僻，
只是人难免会有想休息的时候吧！
所以咯~~这几天，大家辛苦了。
打鼓这么累了，还要看到一张大便脸=[
希望明天会比较好吧！

2010-04-15T23:16:00.005+08:00

I am tired like a bitch now!

My body is not aching though a lot of injuries here and there.

Bruises on leg!

Mark on shoulder!

I feel bloody dizzy now,
guess is because the rain just now.
Damn it!

Having mood swing yesterday and today.
But now back to normal already.
It's very hard for me to hide my emotion.
我是双眼皮女生，很感性的。
And i think it's my own problem of having bad mood,
it's not your problem.
I don't want anyone to have any misunderstanding that
i not happy is because of anyone.

Argh...i dunno, i very tired, Goodnight=]
Jiayou for tomorrow's Regatta Performance=]

120% of efforts = 100% of result?

2010-04-13T13:13:00.005+08:00

Dream dream dream,
Song Leng appeared in my dream last night.
Saying i dun miss him is not right, i do.

Thing and people change as time goes by,
we dun have the ability to keep thing unchanged.
What we can do is accept the change so life can continue.
But over some time, my heart ache.
Inside me, there is a voice telling me that i want him to come back,
i want thing to be like last time, i want the happiness i had before.
To make it clear, i dun like people leave because of unhappiness.

I know it may sound naive to you but i still believe that
there is always a solution for every problem.
It depends on what you want and how you want thing to be,
or how you solve the problem.

I think you are too greedy.
You know, i never over force myself to get 100% in exam.
I am always at the "slightly better than moderate" level.
I am satisfied with it so i just put in 99% of efforts to get the result.
For some people, they think it is such a waste.
If they were me, they will put in 120% of efforts to get full mark.
But then, full mark so what?
Go and weight the full mark and the thing you lost for the full mark.
Is it worth?

Same for life.
When you put in many efforts to change the group,
but your efforts are wasted or even worse,
thing turns up the other way you want.
So you are angry, heart broken,
or you become not trust anyone anymore.
It is not worth.

且说缘分

2010-04-09T16:20:00.008+08:00

成绩放榜当天，老实说，我有点彷徨。
三年前，带着行李，我来到陌生的城市。
三年后，书读完了，我该回家了。（至少在找到工作前）
可是因为一些人、事、物，对原本应该毫无留恋的城市，我有了牵挂。
三年时光，把老家的我的气息，洗光光~~
新加坡的衣橱，放的是我这三年来，购置的衣服。
老家的衣橱，放的是三年前，我常穿的衣服。
除了那些衣服，和我睡的床，
老家，并没有我存在过的痕迹。
到底我从哪里来？又该往哪里去？
我今年只有二十岁，却不曾在一个地方生活超过十年。
汶莱八年，马来西亚九年，新加坡三年，加起来刚好二十年。
有时想想，还真想哭。。。
我该对别人说，我的家乡在马来西亚，还是汶莱？
但不管怎样，我的未来，
至少这三年内，还是会“被绑”在新加坡，以身低债=D

缘
三年，遇到很多人。
投缘的，有两个，Fee Boon 和 Rachel。
投缘的，还有一坨，Salvo。
真的很投缘啊~~
几乎是第一天，就毫无陌生感的天南地北的聊。
虽然环境让这样的朋友无法相聚，
但你就是知道，彼方有个很谈得来的朋友。

分
很像我和Angel，但又有那么一点不同。
或许，
在外地认识的，叫朋友；
在同一个村子里认识的，叫家人。
也或许，是因为时间。
毕竟我和Angel认识了九年。
友谊不是一认识某人就有的。
友谊是需要时间来灌溉的。

所以常常有人说，有缘无分。
若是有缘相遇，却无分在一起，那就是一句对不起。
我说的在一起，是指想法上的，而不是俩人必须常碰面的那种。
我和Angel，除了认识的前半年，都是分隔两地的。
远距离友情，写信保持联系，久久碰一次面。
现在回想起来，好个纯纯的友谊啊！
总而言之，重点：认识的两人，有没有花时间，沟通彼此的生活和想法。

缘，就像幼苗；
分，就像水分。
缘分，就是我们亲手灌溉的大树。
朋友就像一棵树。
难过了，靠着它哭泣；
开心时，会刻在树上作纪念。
说着说着，好想念Angel哦=[

我想，在友谊的路上，我一直是幸运的。
可能我的个性不特别鲜明吧，长得又平凡。
所以，女人不会嫉妒我，
男人不会。。。（ok，我不知道男生怎么看我，哈哈）
但据我所知，男同学都抱怨我很凶！哈哈=p
所以，无风也无浪，交了很多朋友。
再加上，从小渔村来的我，有一群算是一起长大的朋友。
小学到中学，每天见面。
当然不是没有经过革命，只是革命之后，更成熟懂事，更珍惜彼此。
我知道他们将会是我一辈子的朋友。

有时候，我还蛮同情新加坡的小孩。
幼稚园，小学，中学，poly或JC，
这四个不同的成长环境，不同的“朋友”。
到底。。。有没有一辈子的朋友？
他们的朋友群广；
我们的友谊深。
当然，有或没有，见仁见智。
以前或许没有，不代表以后都不会再有。
如果你的人生可以活到八十岁，那么现在的你，才刚要飞翔。
沿途，你会遇到你的缘分=]

人活着没干嘛，等死呗！
开心点儿吧=]

2010-04-07T10:03:00.004+08:00

I dream of salvo last night, yes, again.

We went to eat dinner at Techno.

I was sitting beside liyen and kelvin was in front of me.

Then i stared at kelvin and i asked liyen:" what is today's date?"

Liyen answered: "8th"

Guess what i do next.

I SHOUTED AT KELVIN:" WHY ARE YOU HERE!? YOU COME BACK EARLIER!?"

I think i miss him=p

Bull Shit

2010-04-06T14:00:00.004+08:00

Why dogs like to play with bull's shit?

I bathed my dog just now because his body got stained with bull's shit.

And now i smell like bull's shit too=[

I swear it is very smelly!

closing of my blog

2010-04-05T15:36:00.003+08:00

Hi all, i am closing down my another blog which i only write in chinese.

Closing down the blog means that,

whatever i used to write there last time, i will write here from now.

So Ee li yen, you dun understand my post next time is your problem liao=D

LOL!!!!

P.S: It is not really closing down like removal of the blog,

i just don't blog there already=p

Salvo chalet: 31st March - 2nd April

2010-04-03T19:34:00.012+08:00

For this chalet, i got enough rest (even more than when i am at home).

At the same time, i paid for this plentiful of rest,

which is got 酸 by almost everyone, LOL!

Then the second night i got some tattoo from 猪小姐

被猪说是猪，够惨！

my toe nails, say hi to them=]

Then for the love letter thing,
like most of the juniors think that i always voice out and point out their mistake le=p, lol!
bo bian, i too talkative...

Through the chalet, i learnt a lot of things.
True heart will be replied by true heart.
Hypocrite will be replied by nothing.

A lot of things had changed, same for the people.
有人变得开朗，
有人变得不快乐，
有人变成熟同时有魅力，
有人变得爱欺负我=p
而我呢，问号-ing

Anyway, the chalet is fun=]
i miss herman, kelvin and songleng.

headbutt

2010-03-25T23:29:00.004+08:00

See carefully, my forehead is at kelvin's eyes level.

So when i headbutt him, i knocked his eye instead of forehead.

Well, it is just for fun, paiseh ah kelvin.

I thought the 2nd time will be more accurate, LOL!

Thanks and sorry to all of you who got tortured by me.

In any form of torturing, verbally or physically.

Ya, i know i have done a lot of "bad thing".

I just cannot stop the action, it seems like i am addicted to be violent.

Most of the time, i feel loved.

Just like a little girl doesn't get scolded by her father even if she is being naughty.

I know the reason of the little girl being naughty,

is either she is too bored or she wants her dad to "sayang" her.

Most of the time, i am just too bored=D

So next time if you got beaten by me again, you know why!

毕业论

2010-03-13T17:59:00.003+08:00

昨天，成绩拿了，“世纪”创了。
成绩和演出，努力都没有白费。
我，毕业了。
Poly生涯三年，如此短暂。
回首第一年，我只想要平平淡淡的度过，直到毕业。
第二年，不知发了什么疯，加入Salvo Drums。
第三年，也没什么特别，只是认识了更多的系友; Salvo 有了更多的新血。
在系上，有一直帮助我的Debbie和Aida，真的很开心和她们同班。
当然还有FeeBoon和她的朋友，在图书馆的日子，也很温馨。
然后。。。班上的男生，
虽然到现在，还是没有办法和他们成为朋友，
但我依然觉得，能认识就是一种缘分。

在Salvo里，除了会流汗流血，还会流泪。
度过了许多风雨，我们还是没有离开（好像歌词哦，哈哈）
虽然曾经很辛苦，但我们坚持留下来，还“创世纪”！
回首向来萧瑟处，归去，也去风雨也无晴
我很喜欢这句话，它是那么真切反映Salvo的情形。

我真的很爱Salvo
我是多么的舍不得
我会多么的想念
小小的studio 8，
打完鼓之后，夹杂着汗和毯子的闷热味道的studio 4。
Art Space 外面的女厕，在那里着装，准备出表演;
偶尔情绪失控，也会在那里痛哭。
还有那两个贩卖机，赚了Salvo很多钱，哈哈！

其实你们知道吗？
促进感情最好的方式，
不是常见面，多出门。
而是一起为了某个目标，
一起冲刺，一起努力，一起欢笑，一起流泪。
开心也好，难过也好，舍不得也好，
当我觉得，你们还蛮可爱的时候。。。
我要离开了。

最最舍不得的人，该说什么好呢？
我很喜欢我们腻在一起的感觉，
君子之交淡如水，我们就是这样的吧。。。
没有那么复杂的我们，淡淡的，却也暖暖的=]
就好像Cheryl这样~~~
Cheryl，你听到我的告白了吗？哈哈哈=D

《创世纪》划下了我们的句点，
在这完美的演出之后，
我们不会再在一起努力了。
下次，轮到我坐在观众席上，
看你们努力，看你们打鼓。

Salvo Woosh！

liyen and her sour tape

2010-03-07T00:38:00.005+08:00

so fun having conversation with them=]

this part is where the conversation start to get fierce after munyong left.

i like liyen's sour tape(Y)

has been suffering from stresses for so long,

this conversation really make me laugh.

I am karen

2010-02-25T21:24:00.006+08:00

I stayed up all night before my Chemical Reaction Engineering exam.
I think i can get an A=]
I slept from 11pm till 6am before my Material and Nanotechnology paper.
I think i flunked it=[
I am going to Bangkok from 18th till 21th of March.
I found out that the supplementary exam is from 19th will 25th of March=[
I got BTT on 25th of March too.
I will be free after that and waiting for graduating=]
I have not sent my resume to any company yet.
I may not get a job soon=[
I went out with my friends yesterday=]
I watched movie with them at Iluma=]
I met Munyong at Iluma=]
He hit me, pain=[
My friends knew that i "scolded" one of our friends, so
I posted on facebook "即使是知己，也会有不愉快，更何况是好朋友，气过就算了。。。"
I saw Eric's message yesterday.
I am not willing to pay SGD30 for the costume so i have not replied him until now.
I am in Malaysia now=]
I sms-ed my best friend in the afternoon.
I have not gotten a reply from her=[
She is my best friend, why she don't reply me?
I need to talk to her, so much things inside me.
My mum and my sister always argue=[
I find that my home is not that happy already=[
I want to escape from the unhappiness but this is my only home=[
I am going to my relative's house this saturday=]
I will ask them to come to Salvo concert=]
I realised all my relatives treat me very nice=]
Because i am _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _=[
I got a free MP4 from my internship company=]
I met up with my colleagues to sing K and he gave me=]
I asked Ruohan to help me buy headphone from a Korea website.
He seems to be facing some problem of purchasing it=[
I appreciate his help even if he cannot get the headphone=]
Eric's score have not finished yet=[
I am going to start drumming on 2nd of March=]
I am looking forward to the concert.
Some of my friends cannot come=[
My mum is going to Thailand.
I have to come back Malaysia to look after my house.
I bring trouble to her as i cannot confirm my schedule with her=[
It is because i flunked my MNT paper=[
I am under pressure for very long=[
I want to sing K!
I am not healthy=[
I feel disgusted when someone criticizes others with no reason or strong evidence=[
I think they are childish, ridiculous, ugly, shameless=[
I wish to go back.
I wish i had never came to Malaysia and then Singapore.
I wish you are here with me.
I miss you.

2010-02-08T20:18:00.005+08:00

Sugarloaf's pineapple tart rocks!
Although the filling=pineapple is too sweet.

For the chocolate, i give 100%.
It is super nice=]
But my tooth very pain now~~~~
Eat too much sweeties today=[

Tomorrow have Basic Theory Test in the morning,
i am glad that salvo training has stopped......
Do you really think that i happy?
No~~~~i want training!!!!

By the way, i saw my friend's brother at ASc level 1 today,
i was very surprised (because the guy is from my hometown) so i called him.
I call his full name, cause i dun really know him, LOLX!
Then we had some funny conversation,
but most of the time was me talking.
Because he dunno me at all=p
Then i found out that the company he is working for is our school's lab equipment supplier.
That's why he come down to TP.
Then he left....
I felt damn embarrassing but still....how to say,
you know the feeling of
coincidentally meet someone who is from the same hometown in a foreign country?
So i must call him! LOLX!

Okay, have to study for BTT already=]
bye~~

2010-02-04T11:52:00.005+08:00

Finally the MNT project interview is over=]
It was not that bad, we can answer most of the questions.
Although the answers may not be correct=x
Anyway, what has been done has been done,
sounds familiar right?
LOLX

The next project is PT project.
It should be an easy task so i am not worried.

What really concerns me is the drum scores.
One do not have enough time to learn,
one have enough time but did not use it efficiently,
one have enough time and it's used efficiently but the energy level is low.

If your teacher teaches you 1+1=2
but during the examination,
he suddenly says 1+1=3.
What can you do?

Indeed the efforts are put in;
in fact the efforts are put into rubbish bin.

2010-02-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

《鼓立方》是一场值回票价的演出。
虽然我看完之后就忘得七七八八了，
但感觉是忘不了的。
我的感觉是——真的是很好看=]

《创世纪》即将来临，
我好想哭啊T.T
《生克五形》就甮说了，
到最后可能会“真的无形”。
《创世纪》叻~~
唉！我去“撞死鸡”可能还会快一点。。。

星期三就要预审了，
可进度都。。。
唉，不是我想讲。。。
加油吧！SALVO！
希望我们顺利地度过这一切，
直达目标——《创世纪》！

玲玲已经到新加坡了，
明天要去见她和她的洋男友，
十二年没见了，
好兴奋噢=D
晚安=]

2010-01-28T23:57:00.005+08:00

Scientists say the higher your I.Q. The more you dream.

Karen just read this from Jia huan's mail.
Hahaha, i dream about salvo almost every night,
so i can conclude that i have unmeasurable I.Q.=]

他奶奶的破相！

2010-01-18T23:49:00.002+08:00

How can my drumstick hurt me!?
Oh my pretty face=[

2010-01-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

Yo, i updated my blog by uploading the pictures to the previous post=]
Hmm.....life is quite stressful now.
14/1 - MNT report (almost forgot about it)
22/1 - PT project submission (haven started)
25/1 - MNT project submission ( started but not more than 50% have done)
28/1 - PT term test 1

Other than that,
22/1 - Song Leng's birthday chalet
23/1 - Hong and Heng Yong's birthday chalet

Ok la, not really many things but the progression of the project is really killing me!
Damn it!
I hope i can pass through all this....
I hope the exam come soon and also the concert and the Thailand trip!

2010-01-03T13:05:00.002+08:00

So cute right!
I want to give birth to a son like him!
Kawaii desu ne~~~
My son's father, where are you?
Haha=p

Happy Year 2010!!!!

2010-01-01T00:12:00.003+08:00

Happy new year everyone!!!!
Have a great year ahead!!!
Let's make a wish for this year~
I want a_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ this year=p
It's a secret@@
Cannot tell you....

Let's make a reflection about year 2009.
I had learn that:

1. Always complete your task by the deadline
A new year come and i just missed the deadline of submission of my homework yesterday=[
WHATEVER!!!!

2. Silence
It's not about voicing out something that you think it's not right or right in another way. Sometimes, silence is the way.

3. Trust
It's very important in every kind of relationship, no trust no talk.

4. Bias
Same as point 2, no trust and you talk, what you say could be bias one.

5. Care
All the struggle come from this guy. You have the freedom if you dun care about anything.

I want to thank this very special person.
Fishball Huiying!!!!
I really appreciate the thing that you taught me when i was lost and dunno what should i do.
I can tell you those thing that you taught me are already in me=]
But a simple "thank you" is what i can say to you.
Thank you so much, MUACKS<3

Then i also want to thank Soeng May and Li Yen,
without their help,
i really dunno how to complete my Major Project!
Love you 2 deep deep=]

And then i want to thank a teacher from Chemical Engineering,
the teacher in charge of SIP.
I want to thank you for sending me to Shell Seraya for my SIP.
It really helps me a lot.
I dunno how to explain but it really helps.
Thank you teacher=]

Then i thank god, LOL!
I want to thank you because you introduced Rachel Chew to me!
A friend that is very 谈得来=]
Must cherish the fate okay?

Lastly, Santa Claus.
I swear i had never been so sad when i lost a thing.
I almost break down when i know i cannot find the ring.
I will continue to be a good girl.
So please protect my ring from whoever wanna steal it okay?
Thank you for sending it back to me!

Okay, now is apologize time...
I had hurt this person for twice i think....
but i am a very straight forward person so....i dunno what to say already.
What i can do is to be aware of what i say,
better is keep quite, LOL!
I am sorry.
I am not apologizing for what i said but the way i said=]

Year 2009,
let me count,
how many times (that i can recall) i got angry with my mum?
3 times....
Oh my god, that's a lot.
Okay mum, i wanna tell you that I LOVE YOU.
Making you feel sad is the thing that i will never want to do.
But you need to know that sometimes i am facing stress from my school stuff, my cca, etc.
It's very hard for me to always have a good mood.
So if it (get angry with you) ever happen again,
can you please just take it as a funny joke?
Left ear in right ear out?
If you feel sad because of it i will feel even more sad than you.
I swear i do.

A new year have came!
Hope everything/ everyone will get better from this second!

2009 present collection

2009-12-31T23:59:00.001+08:00

I am here to show off only,
dun read this post if you are not generous enough,
hahaha!

1. Stitch Pouch from Thailand by Ruth

2. Doraemon Watch from Taiwan by my sister

3. Key Chain from Korea by Debbie

4. Tooth by Mun Ting

5. KAREN from this L

6. Bracelet from another L

7. Monokun Handphone seat by Rachel

8. Bear by Wanyi

LOL!
I had got 8 presents due to different reason this year,
hahaha!!!
i am so happy, so in love~~~
And this number still do not include my birthday present=]
hahaha!!!
Are you jealous???
Be jealous please!!!
That will make me feel damn happy!!!
Just joking=]

X'mas present 2009

2009-12-24T11:26:00.002+08:00

You are not going to believe what i said.
Trust me, this is so unbelievable!
Last night i dreamt that i found back my ring,
but the ring got a lot of scratches due to some unknown reason.
Just like it's hidden in somewhere and it become very dusty when you found it.
AND THEN!!!
When i was preparing to go out with my sister,
i touched some thing that have familiarity of tactility in my pocket.
So i took it out and OMG!!!
IT'S MY RING!!!
I'm so happy therefore i am here to blog about it before i go out, haha!
Lost it for long time and found back on X'mas eve!
So the conclusion is...
I am a good girl that is why Santa Claus give it back to me as X'mas gift!
Thank you!
I love you Santa Claus!
MERRY X'MAS EVERYONE=]
Hope you guys get what you want too!

Taiwanese Cibotium (金狗毛)

2009-12-22T23:51:00.011+08:00

Haha, i found the plant which looks like Salvo Drums' QM, Mr. Kelvin Li's hair~~~~
so long the name=p
It's called Taiwanese Cibotium (金狗毛).

Hmmm......
if you dun think they look alike,
then i show you another comparison.

Still dun look alike?
No choice then...
you have to see the real thing then you will know they look similar.
Maybe you can cut kelvin's hair and compare whether it looks like this:

==========================================
Dear Mr. Kelvin,

Please dun be angry over this post,
it is for entertaining purpose only=]

Yours sincerely,
Karen
==========================================

2009-12-17T04:53:00.002+08:00

Finally i understand that....
why people always blog when they cannot sleep throughout the whole nigh=[
damn ass la,
After yesterday's training,
i reached home and bathed.
Then lied on bed and tried to sleep,
well, basically i just closed my eyes only,
closed eyes and lied on bed until now hor!!!
How patient!
Anyway, 2 more hours and i am free=]
I am going back Malaysia later and i am thinking where is Mun Yong now?
Malaysia or Singapore?
Hehe.
Just a thought, nothing much=p

信任，偏见，执著

2009-12-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

村子里有三兄弟：大哥信任、二哥偏见、小弟执著。

大哥生性善良，二哥城府深，小弟懦弱。

善良的信任，是一村之长，一直照顾着村子里的人，

大家安居乐业，每天的生活都充满欢笑。

偏见却一直都很不满意大哥，处心积虑要把他赶走。

所以他散布谣言，向每个人说信任的坏话。

懦弱的执著，虽然知道真相，

却不敢走出家门，向大家解释一切原由。

最后，信任被逼走了。

偏见也取得了全村人的信任，成为了新的村长。

在偏见的管理之下，大家的性格渐渐变得多疑。

村民们不时的在猜疑彼此，脸上的笑容没了，

却多了因猜忌而疲惫的皱纹。

这时的执著很后悔，也很自责。

为何当初不把真相说出来？

所以他把自己锁在房间里，

通过房里小小的一扇窗，

关心村子里的动向。

就这样，日复一日，

村子依然没变，村民们依然互相猜忌。

有一天，有一只小鸟飞过执著房间的窗户。

出于好奇，它问执著发生了什么问题？”

执著将一切托盘而出。

离开的信任；

掌权的偏见；

房里的执著。

这就是人类，

一旦没有了信任，

偏见就趁虚而入。
当我们以为心已灰，意已冷时，
才发现看不见的执著，
一直住在我们心房里没离开过。

2009-12-08T09:42:00.002+08:00

I seriously think that....
the naughty, not-so-funny Peeves had stolen my ring=[
I want to find a secret place, maybe a cave.
Hide my treasures inside.
Of course the password will not be "Open, Simsim!"
Damn F la, where is my ring?
Where is my bracelet?
真他妈的不爽.\/.

2009-11-26T11:59:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS LIKE SHIT!

2009-11-16T09:39:00.006+08:00

Auditorium 1 had became my home for the past 3 weeks,
almost everyday go there for rehearsal,
last last tuesday was ICN,
last friday was CCN concert, DREAM II.
Salvo played 浪 and 突破 as the opening and closing,
damn cool can.
Thank you my friends who came to watch!
You know who you are la, no need to mention name hor=]
One of my friend took photo when we shout 谁~~~

Well, the quality a bit.....
but you see!
The 2 Vet tech one, i cannot stop LOL-ing,
wahahahhaa~~~~damn 帅 la, the 2 of you=p

Anyway, i shall tell you how unlucky i am after the concert.
I fell with my butt on the ground at Tampines because it was raining.
I waited bus for like 30mins because no bus 15and 8 but only 23.
When i reached Bedok there to change bus 60,
the driver drove the bus away without checking any people behind=[
I waved to the cabs, no one want to pick me up. DAMN!
So i walked to the bus stop nearer to my house....in the rain=.=
I thought of a lot of peoples but i realised at this timing,
no one can help me, almost cry T.T
Reached the bus stop, i saw another bus 60.....
the previous one wasn't the last bus but i thought it was....F**K.\/.
So i waited for another 15 to 30 minutes to board bus 58.
When i reach home, i was already 12:45am.
I used 1 hours 15 minutes to reach home.
Damn poor thing....

2009-11-04T22:59:00.011+08:00

Participated in International Culture Night yesterday.
I performed for Malaysia group with all the TPMS, Temasek Polytechnic Malaysia Student.
My first time wearing Kebaya, so nice=]
Thank you Mitchelle for borrowing the baju kebaya from your friend,
and so the size just nice for both of us!
The only flaw is.............................
Karen's height=[
I had to use safety pin to pin it right below my bra=x
Cause the dress too long for me~~

SEE!!! how short i am....

Hehe, He is very pretty@@

TP Malaysia group=]

The 5 girls with colourful baju kebaya^^

We are from Pengerang!

My feeling after the show is:
I made new friends!
Nice to meet you all=D

Also, finally there is no rehearsal and i can attend salvo training=]
But then the following performance will be more tiring and next week is full of rehearsal...
but I LIKE!

The stranger came to talk to me again!
Seriously i dunno what she want.
So i asked her who is she and where she comes from.
===================================================
chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
xin shang
nonono , jb
can u open ur webcam mah ?

予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45] says:
cannot

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
y >.<"

予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45] says:
i dunno you

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
im a girl ~
13 age
name wei tong

予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45] says:
i am not interested in you

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
>.<" canot open webcam let me c c u mah ?

予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45] says:
...bye~~~

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
...
nvm
bb
===================================================
-The End-
And then i blocked her=p
Good night~~

2009-10-31T20:06:00.002+08:00

I should call my mum and be a good girl.
I miss my mum and of course my dad.

I need concentration.
I don't want distraction.

I hate myself.
I love myself.

Last semester.
Then my life will be....

小智一家人

2009-10-28T01:03:00.005+08:00

I am waiting for a thing,
may it be tag or reply.
I still feel so unrealistic,
so please shows that your existence.
My dearest friend=]

After so many years and finally we got to "meet" each other again.
Through internet.
It's like missing you guys more and more after we met,
i can't wait to meet you guys personally!
I am sure that i will have a lot of thing to talk about,
just wonder if you are the same...

宝藏，被藏在宝盒里。
回忆，被锁在心房里。
真心想念，我用心想。

Singaporeans are a bit shy

2009-10-25T09:37:00.005+08:00

I was on bus 59 to Changi Village,
this Taiwan guy was sitting in front of me
he was talking to his female friend who is sitting beside him.
He called an army guy and said "Open"
while his hand was pointing to the guy's bag.
Ooo, i see, the bag is opened.
Then the Taiwan guy continued talking to his friend
and the army guy kept looking at him,
he wanted to thank the guy, but he didn't get to say thank.
Army guy alighted he bus.
After that, the bus continue moving,
the army guy look in and nodded his head to the Taiwan guy who was looking outside too.
Don't you think the army guy who is a Singaporean is a bit shy?
He wants to thank the Taiwan guy,
but too shy to tap his shoulder or call him.
Just waiting for him to turn his head over....
Hmmmm....who say Singaporeans are cold-blooded,
maybe they are just a bit shy?

2009-10-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

A very funny conversation between me and a stranger.
She is in my contact list but i dunno why.
=======================================
chiavictoria@hotmail.com just sent you a nudge.

(F)予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45](F) says:
???

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
kai kai ni de webcam ~ yao kan kan ni ^^(webcam le~ wanna see you)

(F)予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45](F) says:
ni shi shei ah (who are you)

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
?
kai gei wo kan kan ni ^^(let me see you)
ke yi ma ? (can?)

chiavictoria@hotmail.com just sent you a nudge.

(F)予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45](F) says:
bu ke yi (cannot)

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
wei shen me o ~ (why)

(F)予瑄[c=8]^Desire for a happy life^[/c=45](F) says:
yin wei wo bu ren shi ni (because i dunno you)

chiavictoria@hotmail.com says:
==...wo ye shi nv shen lai de ma ~ (i'm also a girl ma)
suan le lo... (forget it lo)
=======================================
WHAT THE HELL????
DAMN LOL!!!!

2009-10-19T11:27:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day of school!!!
Finally the day i am waiting for has reached.
I'm waiting for my course mate to reply my message
so i can continue completing my mp logbook,
and then i will bathe and tidy up my stuff.
Then i will also go to school to meet salvo people to have lunch,
maybe if i got time i will make my timetable=]
Last semester of school,
so fast...i have been here for 2 years plus.
Wait....my course mate reply me,
i shall finish my logbook first.
===================================
Okay, back=] let's continue.
When i graduate from TP,
that will be my completed 3 years.
I always know what i want in my future,
so i didn't set a high requirement for myself to achieve,
that will only make me feel damn sad.
Anyway, i think i'm not smart,
so why torture myself?
But now i feel a bit nervous....
one of my course mates told me that,
we will not get A for our project
cause our logbook not so detailed as compared to those who stay in-house.
Well, THIS IS NOT FROM KAREN CHONG YEE SUAN but someone else.
If any ChE people read this, dun come and kill me.
Your understanding are much appreciated.

But i really did put in effort to do my project,
and i really hope i get A for it.
I really hope my result can get me in a good company after i graduate.
But those companies always have high requirement,
they hire smart people.
But the thing is,
KAREN IS BLUR.
KAREN IS NOT SMART.

Anyway, even if i get in the company,
most probably i will move to west side,
work at west side too.
Who the hell can tell me why i joined Salvo Drums that i cannot let go!?
So i guess i have to travel from west to east every monday and wednesday next time...

2009-10-17T16:03:00.008+08:00

I had spent SGD67.90 on food this week!
Tuesday - Kim Gary
Wednesday - Opposite school, Techno
Thursday - Subway
Friday - BBQ Chicken + Steamboat (天天火锅)
Today - Indian food at Little India
Damn it!
Have to control myself to not to spend too much money on food!

But had indian food with liyen today at the little india there was so fun!
Cause it's my first time to be in an indian restaurant.
Then we have to go to the counter to order food,
take number and wait for our turn.
We also bought some snacks from the restaurant.
When we are picking the snacks,
peoples in the restaurant kept looking at us=s
Aiyo, MAI A NE~~
TAO JIT BAI MA~~

my number is 1099, liyen's one is 1100,

can buy 4D already, LOL

here come our prata set!

Yummy yummy=]

It's very nice, and i am eating the one at the left top corner now=]

The reason why i should not bring my monkey=s

2009-10-15T01:01:00.011+08:00

My poor 小涵 was put in the wardrobe=[

Cheryl, what are you doing?

Cheryl again hugging him...

Then is Soeng May=s

Then Jessica also=x

Cassandra??

And Felicia=[

The reason why i should not bring my monkey anymore.

And i remember Shermagne also kept hugging 小涵, but i cannot find the photo...
Okay, just kidding!
i will still bring him to out la.....LOL=D

2009-10-14T11:26:00.001+08:00

Why is the timetable not out yet!?
I cannot wait for school to start la!!!!!!

2009-10-11T21:21:00.002+08:00

I dunno why but the mail about this performance was failed to send to some juniors,
so i post it here.
And for you who is reading this please help me spread the news=]
Thanks!

2009-10-11T19:39:00.003+08:00

Finally i had sent my Major Project to my supervisor,
hope he will reply me asap.
Soeng May~~ I LOVE YOU!! muacks<3

The chalet was good,
though most of the time i hid in the room and do MP.
I like the feel when the first night we had dinner in the living room.
It felt like CNY and all the cousins come back.
But i think i will not bring 小涵 to salvo anymore,
everyone is snatching it away from me!!
No la, just kidding, hehe

Hmmm....
tomorrow have a root canal treatement,
but now my gum still swollen,
haiz...dunno how la,
and my body still have some other parts need to repair,
sianz......
hope everything get better soon.

Mid-Autumn Festival 2009, karen and her mp=[

2009-10-03T17:38:00.004+08:00

Went to Yan Palace Restaurant with Shell Seraya's colleagues today,
had century egg porridge, din sumssss, and mango pudding=]
Kelvin!
Century egg porridge le!
got horse's urine one.....hahahahah

erm......today will stay at Marine Parade,
hahaha, paiseh hor,
i got a lot of relatives here.
Because tomorrow have to 祭拜 my 三伯母 at a temple at Balestier Road.
So fast..she has left for a year.....hmmmmm.....

I dun seem to have any mood to celebrate Mid-Autumn Festival
月圆人团圆，圆个屁啦！
My major project and I only.
Damn it!

P.S:
Karen is not available for the next 2 weeks,
please dun invite her out.
Sorry for the inconvenient!

2009-09-27T02:44:00.005+08:00

My favourite phrase:
人都是犯贱的
LOL
this is really true lo...
so i dun mind you call me a bitch,
but please be aware that i'm Soeng May's bitch,
dun anyhow anyhow me please=p

Here is a very nice song for all of you,
Omg, 小鬼 is damn cool, cute, handsome!!!

不屑 by 黄鸿升（小鬼）

Hey, 司马昭=]
This is also the "present" i wanna give you=p
司马昭之心路人皆知，
I'm very busy, no time to act in your show.
Enjoy your show=]
我“不屑”！
Nenenipupu~~~

2009-09-22T11:23:00.003+08:00

I am being too relax this few days at Malaysia....
until i forgot i have to submit my SIP report this friday!
And have to do the result presentation and ppt for my Major Project...
HA HA HA=[
sianzzzz, must chiong now!

2009-09-19T16:54:00.003+08:00

Yeah, back to Malaysia again=]
My cousin suddenly wanna organise a BBQ tonight,
so they are preparing now.
Tomorrow will have another BBQ at Pin's house,
dunno how many kg will i gain after 2 BBQs =[

Official last day of internship at Shell

2009-09-18T23:43:00.005+08:00

Congratulation to Karen!!!!
Yeah, finally i can sleep as long as i want!!!!
Start from tomorrow, LOLX!
Because tomorrow still need to wake up early to attend a workshop at Woodlands.

Had farewell dinner with Rachel at this vegetarian restaurant, Roma Deli at Shaw Towel=]
The foods are nice~~~
Shall go there another time!
Then i got a Domokun handphone seat as a farewell gift^^
She damn sweet la!!!
Really surprised me by a lot lor!!!
You din't say you will treat me la,
I appreciate it but....
seriously 不好意思，一直让你破费=s
Next time let me treat you okay???
Then we should remember to take pictures next time,
we forgot to take picture just now!!!!!
What a waste=[

So ya, i think that should be all for today....
Tomorrow will go back to Malaysia after the workshop,
and will have BBQ during weekends with my friends=]

我觉得是你在天上保佑我
才会让这么多好人
来到我身边
和我做朋友
谢谢你
我会很珍惜她们的
我也会好好照顾自己的
不要担心
我爱你

2009-09-14T10:30:00.003+08:00

Oh my god!!!!
Wearing RED really bring me luck!!!
I just received a phone call from Tampines Mall's MacDonald.
They say they have the Happy Meal's Doraemon number 1 and 3 for me^^
Hooray~~
I am going to eat Happy Meal again=]
2 sets of it, who wants to share with me?
HAHAS!!!!
Damn HAPPY de Happy Meal~~

2009-09-14T08:28:00.006+08:00

I am wearing red blouse + black pant!
Inside is red and hot pink =p
LOLX!
Hope today will be a good monday for me=]

My SIP at Shell Seraya is drawing to an end,
so i gonna have dinner with Rachel at a vegetarian restaurant at Bugis, yeah~~

This week i will go back to Malaysia,
have to learn how to make chesse cake from my sister=[
Yayaya, i know, how shameful it is,
i have to learn from my younger sister...
But i know how to make longan touhu!!
Well, it has been long since i made longan touhu ,
so i also gonna practice that.
And all of this will eventually contribute to Salvo chalet^^
Hopefully?? hahas.

Next saturday will go Bugis Top One to sing K!!!
Omg!!!! Damn look forward to it!
Neo is coming too, hahas.
I think that day will be very funny,
i can't stop laughing every time he speak, LOL!

2009-09-07T19:05:00.004+08:00

Today is totally not my day!!!!
i woke up at 0530 as usual,
then i took bus to Eunos since i stayed at Bedok last night,
and i reached JE Mrt station earlier,
went to buy bee hoon and boarded 0720 bus.
Everything seems so nice~~

Then when i reached Jurong Island checkpoint,
i realised i din bring my JI pass.
Because the JI pass was at my Tampines house=[
They say it's ok, you can exchange with your IC=]
Neither i bring my IC!!!
So i couldn't exchange JI pass.
Freak!!!!
No choice, i have to go back to Tampines to take my pass.
When i reached home, it was 0930 only,
so i slowly ate my bee hoon and did my project.
When i looked at the time,
SHIT!
it was quite late already
(but can't remember what time exactly)
So i faster rushed to Mrt station,
and finally reach Jurong East AGAIN at 1150,
i just missed the 1145 bus=[
Cabbed into Jurong Island which costed me about 11dollar.
DAMN IT!!!!

Monday only le!!!
People got monday blue i got black monday,
I think because i wear BLACK today:
Black tank top, black jacket, black pant.
Today's jouney:
Eunos --> JE --> JI checkpoint --> Lake Side --> Tampines --> JE --> Tampines.
Wakao!!!!

Next monday i should wear RED:
Red bra, Red panty, Red shirt, Red pant=]

2009-09-04T20:52:00.001+08:00

Yesterday and today,
i was offended.
Damn the bastard!
How much i wish i could PUT my hand on your face,
it will definitely make my day=]
Maybe i can make it a fist too.
Being wronged doesn't feel good,
being wronged for 3 times in just 2 days is suck!

Anyway, other than this annoyance,
and the stress comes from my project,
i am quite happy with my life^^
I dunno why,
but i feel so satisfied.
知足常乐=]
i think i am experiencing it now^^
Haha, so HAPPY!!!

I miss drumming,
i'm serious,
i miss DRUMMING!
Not the poeple but drum.
However we are still drumming with people,
so...i miss salvo ppl too^^
Miss to drum with them.

Ohya ohya,
i know why i am so happy with my life.
Because i did something i think it will be good.
Because i touched someone's heart.
Because i am gonna do something instead of thinking.
Because i see the happiness belongs to me.

Hari Kebangsaan Malaysia

2009-08-31T09:18:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI JADI KEPADA MALAYSIA!
Hari ini adalah Hari Kebangsaan Malaysia,
sebagai warganegara Malaysia,
saya rasa sangat sedih kerana saya sedang bekerja di Shell Seraya yang terletak di Singapura!
Tidak boleh balik kampung untuk menyambut hari ini yang begitu penting!
Walaubagaimanapun, saya hendak mengucapkan "HARI JADI KE-46" kepada Malaysia=]
Kepana bukan Hari Jadi Ke-52???
Kerana pada tahun 1963, 16 September
Tanah Melayu bergabung dengan Sabah, Sarawak dan Singapura membentuk negara Malaysia.
31 Ogos 1957 adalah hari merdeka oleh TANAH MELAYU bukan Negara MALAISYA!
2 tahun selepas Malaysia dibentuk, Singapura keluar daripada Malaysia untuk menjadi sebuah republik pada 9 Ogos 1965.
Jangan rasa malu kalau kamu tak tahu sejarah ini,
kerana saya pun baru tahu pada pagi ini dari internet.
HAHAHA!!!

2009-08-27T19:26:00.003+08:00

I'm at TP's library level 4 now!
OMG! I miss TP's library so much,
miss working here too~~~
Anyway, the computer is upgrated!!!!
Nice la~~
Can play song liao,
Msn also upgrates to newer version
and the internet server is better now,
faster than last time!
Well done well done=]
Okay, start to do project.....

2009-08-25T21:06:00.003+08:00

Aiyoyo!!!
Forgot to tell you all one thing.
I dreamt of Salvo AGAIN!!!
Ya, so long didn't dream of Salvo already.
The scene was in a classroom， i also dunno why@@
The class was over and all the juniors were packing their stuff.
Eric came to me, he wants to borrow my laptop.
He said'
"Karen, may i borrow you laptop? Cause your laptop got the dunno what."
(cannot remember what he said)
Then i shouted over to ask Marc,
"Tomorrow got training?"
And Wanyi answered,
"No. Because bla bla bla(cannot remember)
Yala, that's all.
I WANT TRAINING!

2009-08-25T20:07:00.000+08:00

Waliu~~
I am so busy and lazy to blog.
Although i got some things to blog about.
Shall wait for awhile,
when i got the photos and time.

3 weeks time,
SIP is drawing to an end.
BUT SIP report haven been started, MP report also haven.
MP logbook...just wrote 1 entry today morning.
Mood now:
a bit stress
a bit unhappy
a bit sad

2009-08-15T19:30:00.007+08:00

I was damn busy for the past few days=s

not because of doing project but eating!!!

I feel damn guilty=x

LOLX

Wednesday: Ice cream buffet at Swensen at ION Orchard!

I went with Rachel, and it's really worthy!

After service and GST charge, it's about $22.25 for 2 persons=]

Okay, let pictures tell the story:

1st round, oh my oh my~~

Me and the very sweet girl, Rachel Chew~~

I though i'm in the heaven~~

I think i will go for the second time^^

Thursday: Had dinner at Ma Maison at Bugis Junction

Finally meet up with all my dears~~

supposed to be all presenting,

but Sinng suddenly cannot come=[

So SAD (T.T)

And i apologize for being such an outdated friend=p

Haix, Karen should change!!!

Yo, wanna see something?

My 20th year old birthday presentS?

Hehe^^

First present i received is from Rachel

Moisturizer from The Body Shop!!

And a love letter somemore!!!

She is so sweet, omg~~

But strawberry flavour ah, hmm....

Well, i should like it=p

Just like the next present i got.

Second present is from SALVO

Necklace from Metallurgy,

"KAREN SALV(L)(L)9"

and also cakes, and birthday card!
Oh my god, salvo is as sweet as always>.<

And the third present i received is from Debbie^^

Just got it today cause we met at TP before the discussion with LO.

Famous Amos cookies~~

After the discussion, headed down to Changi Ferry Terminal

I was so hungry so i ate it!

hahas, yummy yummy~~

Wow, this post is so long and so many picture, hahas

at Malaysia now=]

家，是永远的避风港。

2009-08-09T20:24:00.004+08:00

Be prepared to listen to my complaint!!!!

Tsk! tsk tsk!!
Karen is annoyed by a lot of things.

First, Major project.
There is a report and a logbook to be completed by dunno when.
Then next Saturday all the interns are needed to go back to TP
to give a presentation about the MP
and also submit a 2-page submission.
The thing now is,
I HAVE DONE NOTHING FOR THE MP LOGBOOK!!!!
Although we keep reading the material given by our supervisor,
i still dunno what to write in the logbook.
It seems like nothing to write...
And i dunno how should i perform the logbook.
i very stress....i wanna go home....

Second, SIP at Shell Seraya.
Well, all the colleagues there are nice peoples=]
This is what i appreciate.
BUT there is always EXCEPTION!!
The story is normal.
In my company,
other than interns from TP,
there are also interns from NP.
And also some contract staffs who continue to work there after their internship there.
So these peoples are split into 2 group, i name them A and B.
I'm more towards A side cause normally B side will not ask me to go with them.
If you think i choose to get closer to A side then you are wrong.
I would say i'm the passive side
and let people choose whether they wanna get closer to me anot.
So, basically, i am so called "friend" of them, both A and B.
However, sometimes i still find that,
B is too=[.
I remember there was this incident...
there was a celebration for this birthday girl at pantry.
So everyone went down to celebrate with her.
And after we got the cake,
we stayed there to chit chat a bit though we dun really close to her.
This is about socializing and politeness.
So you cannot straight away go up after you get the cake!!!
But still some peoples did that, so IMPOLITE=[
And i can tell, B is the one to make the situation like that.
So childish=[

And and and....
other than that,
i personally find that,
GUYS ARE DAMN FUCKED UP!
Every time fuck here and there.
And i think you damn IMBAL,
just a few words that come out from your mouth
can make me angry until i dun feel like talking to you.
But but but, my dear readers,
dun think that the person is not a good person, he is.
Just that he got some kind of fucked up attitude problem, sarcasticness.

And i did this personality test before,
i think the description is super accurate:
一粒粒的汤圆看起来都一样，只有咬下第一口才知道馅料的口味。
你的脾气就像汤圆难以捉摸，有时可以很好，有时确很坏，
尤其当你遇上死对头，怒气更是控制不了。
建议你要学习控制脾气。
You thought i'm emotionless...
Well, that's because i hide all the unhappiness to avoid to quarrel with you=[
I'm learning how to control my temper ok!?
IDIOT!!!

And and and!!!
I think most of the guys on the world didn't learn what is apology.
This seriously applies to A LOT of guys,
i said A LOT, not ALL.
Finding excuses because of your false sense of pride!
To me,
it's super childish and foolish!
A matured man know when to stand their ground
when to apologize for their mistake.
大丈夫能曲能伸！！！

Huu~~~this post is so vulgar and harsh=[
I know it will hurt the person who i talked about,
and i 99% believe that he will read this post.
But who cares?
I dun have the responsibility of taking care your feeling
especially when i'm already annoyed by you=[
Sounds so not Karen huh!?
Maybe you will think i'm so fake that
i dun even voice out a little bit of the unhappiness in front of you,
but then i burst out all of it here.
Blogspot some more,
everyone can see...
But well, there is always a reason for me to blog most of the time.
Because i still own a diary and myspace.
I can choose to write in chinese in myspace or my diary
then you will not get to read and i'm saved.
So the reason is i want you to know but i dun want to tell you face to face.
Because you are unworthy.
I will only use my courage to face the person i care.
Like what i always do in this
Super Awesome dunno what Organisation
lolx, think they will kill me...

Ok, lastly,
I am damn annoyed by SALVO la!!!!!
Joking joking=]
Because we cannot drum for a month=[
Damn sad=[

2009-08-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

Later is salvo performance on Singapore National Day at Tampines Central Park.

We have to gather at school at 6:30am,

and why the hell am i still awake!?

The feeling was suck!

I dunno what had happened to my head,

felt damn unwell,

Bastard...

Oh well, someone called me now,

but i ignore it,

cause i recognise the number.

Everytime call me and say:

"Hello, may i speak to Suria?"

Sianzzz....

Please!!!

I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!

2009-08-07T13:32:00.005+08:00

I think....i'm qualified to be a stalker.
Why so?
Because I ACCIDENTALLY, UNINTENTIONALLY found the blog of this guy who we bought drumsticks from!!!

I damn "zai" right, wahaha~~

And i found out he is the president of preparatory commitee of this 24 festival drums event.

Damn IMBAL la....
Ok, so here is the link of
“第五节廿四节令鼓全国观摩会”
http://fpschu.multiply.com/photos/album/124/124

Before you all click on the link, please look at this 2 photos below,

it's from the album also.

Chia Wei!!!! The gesture of this person reminds me of chia wei=]

Kelvin!!!! Oh well, this is super kelvin-ish XD

2009-08-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me!
Mummy i love you,
Thank you for giving birth to me^^

I'm in love with Naan curry combo=]

2009-07-31T13:28:00.007+08:00

Walao walao, i didn't know that Indian food is so NICE=]
Our department had a farewell lunch for this indian colleague who is leaving,
so they catered indian food,
Naan with curry is damn NICE=]
i eat until i very full,
but i still wanna eat the naan curry combo!!!
Walao walao, fat die me=.=

2009-07-29T12:24:00.002+08:00

Hmm...just realise that i wished Lynchan happy birthday on MunYong birthday...
MunYong, i'm so sorry!!!
But i got wish you face to face,
so i think it doesn't really matter, lolx
And i forgot to bring drumstick!!!!
Sian, later have to use the pervertic drumstick, hahas
Can't wait for 8:30pm to come~~
Ohya, and soon i will post some cute cute comic^^

2009-07-27T10:28:00.006+08:00

HOLIDAYS END!!!
sad...haha! No la, just kidding=p
I enjoyed the holidays
cause the darkness of my dark circles was reduced
and i got no EYEBAGS! =D
But i believe they are on their way to find me, NO~~~

Hmm...going back to Salvo today.
Time passes so slow since last thursday, DAMN!
Can't wait to drum.\/.
I'm gonna drum like nobody's business!!!
Well, i suppose i'm back with
right atitude right behavior=]

Ohya, Happy belated birthday to Lynchan^^
So sorry for this super late birthday wish!

Haha, this picture was taken after 2008 TP Rawks performance,
we look stupid>.<'''
LynChan~~you never thought i will post this picture right?
Haha, this is so called "SURPRISE"!!!!!

2009-07-14T09:28:00.001+08:00

HOLIDAYS=)